How to ruin your life in 17 steps

1. Virtual social interaction and withdrawal encourage a false identity, seeking attention and approval. 2. Bullying, tragedy, drama and assault develop a hypervigilant, survivalistic state of fear. 3. They learn to create a false identity and seek validation through superficiality. 4. In preteen/adolescence days, politics enable them to release their frustration by societal blame, discrimination and identify as anything that justifies their victim state. 5. They are taught they are special in school, then as responsibilities grow beyond their habits and realize they aren’t so special they are CRUSHED. 5.1 Number 5 explains 4. 6. They are either neglected, controlled or infantilized, then don’t know to be assertive or self-reliant without fearing they will never be worth it. 7. They fear to become alone since all their ego depends on validation. 8. Their communities and schools are threatened, and most survive in traumatic households. 9. All entertainment for escaping your own responsibilities and craving temporary pleasures from the pain, and suicide counts. 10. Being sick and no one believing or helping you, or being sickened further. Hiding all your problems because no one cares. 11. You are not allowed to say no or contradict the consensus. 12. The value of your supply defines yours.
13. You are told what is best for you when you subconsciously or consciously know better, leading you to dissociate from your instinct.
14. Believing you're the only sane one. (Walking Dead syndrome)
15. Acknowledging you have been living in a system that illusions a fake world where everyone is here only to suffer, and that unworthiness, hierarchy and sabotaging is normal, healthy, and unavoidable; therefore it does not matter whatever you do, and life has 'no meaning'.
16. Victim vs bully.
17. Escaping life or dissociating to avoid all the suffering.
Narcissism is a SOCIAL SYSTEM, not an individual trait. The absolute system to prevent your happiness and the happiness of everyone else for LIFE AND BEYOND YOUR DEATH.

Byronic Hero vs Hyperbyronic Pathemia (stash)

Byronic hero

Hyperbyronic Pathemia

1. Philophobia (afraid of love) and fears of being vulnerable from repressed hypersensitivity
2. Refuses to be helped, or receive advice even in critical situations; extreme determination narrowing opportunities to learn; irrealistic confidence in self-judgement and independence
3. Partnerships, not relationships
4. 'Concentrational' socio-ideological grooming
5. Discreetly, but pathetically tries to reveal their longing for admiration and concern by a political interest
6. Owns a 'second personality' that is chaotic and destructive, without a predictable switch
7. Hypersensitive to rejection, bias, humiliation and underappreciation, or completely insensitive
8. Subconsciously needs to oppose people's views only to pretend being awakened, then either attack them and self-victimize or judge and ridicule them back for their 'inferiority' but it actually reflects inner wounds
9. Reflects their insecurities through dependency on 'dark grooming'
10. Often goes through depressive, melancholic or 'rage' phases
11. Poor generalized conservation of metacognitive and intellectual skills (not present in all)

A classic case of severe 'schediapathemia' and autism in a 14 year old lolcow

Alex Mae Muholland, also known as Alex Minudaua was a short-lived internet lolcow whose reputation is minor but has traits similar to Christian Weston Chandler.

Schediapathemia is a pathemia, a stereotyped non-psychotic intellectual disorganization where a person thinks they're a cartoon character and acts/sees like one; and is socially clueless of humanity otherwise. Those cases often grow up withdrawn into imaginationland, being deprived from human relationships and deeply overinvolved in relying upon fiction and media, so they learn socials there and miss lifelike human interaction. Autism and schizophrenia can exacerbate schediapathemia to absurdity. 'Moderate autism' is an extremely strong risk of schediapathemia.

The results can be worse than narcissism.

This could be a possible result of emotional deprivation and 'early television watching' when it becomes a hindrance of development; once misattributed to autism. No, this could be a direct result exacerbated by neglect/abuse and autism/schizo. This is it.

"Alex is someone who draws like shit and uses bases like shit. If someone critiques her once, she flips and unleashes her retard rage. She's been known to go on a blocking spree, blocking people who don't have the same opinion as her. Not to mention, she's into pedophilia, as she LOVES underage characters such as Stewie Griffin, and even ships herself with a 50 year old man. Alex is an ungrateful bitch who whines and cries when things do not go her way, and even in a video that was posted on a seperate YouTube account, she was begging her parents to buy her some shitty anime called Elfen Lied. Lulz was had, as her parents made fun of her stupid fat-ass. Alex also has an undying passion for her hatred for Shrek. Nobody knows why, but she makes such a big fuss about it that fan-groups on deviantFART were made to make fun of her and her weird obsession for the disliking of the great ogre-lord. Alex even loves Mpreg, but doesn't even know the basic fucking concepts of pregnancy."

 - Encyclopedia Dramatica

Note that Alex is fourteen years old at the time of the article's publication.

Alex has behaved in the following symptoms:

1. She thinks that fictional characters are real and has planned to go to 'Quahog'.
2. She is oblivious to her own sexuality's questionability.
3. She is obsessed with cartoons. Beyond what's good for her. She lives through them.
4. She cannot discern that she has extremely strong opinions to fictional characters and mistakens it as real.
5. Talks about her 'opinions' everywhere egocentrically. She's not the only one to do this. The difference here is that this kid made his own subreddit.
6. She cannot accept that people have different viewpoints (solipsism).
7. She is extremely sensitive to any criticism, even to making suicidal threats. She mistakes it as teasing or trying to fight.
8. She has created a 'perfect' persona about herself. A Mary Sue.
9. Alex has very low concept of mainstream 'taboos'.
10. She ships characters with herself continually, like an addiction, subconsciously because she can't have her own partner IRL and because she is unaware of the value of a human boyfriend.
11. Alex is oblivious to the sensitivity of matters. She has reposted videos of ill/dead children and made edgy comments.

This sounds like schediapathemia.

~~~~Noshtau~~~~

My 5D Chimera Responds to the Horrors of My Narcissistic Abuse Experiences

Your parents are probably the same but don't recognize their own kind
My parents are mentally equals but alienated each other. I was led to believe my mom or my dad was better... I live with my mother at 17. When I turned 16 I found out they're just the same. Now she still tries to trap me home by infantilizing my sense of responsibility, and used to compare my sisters as socially and responsibly better than me.
She will pretend to be like you She even tried to copy me by a fake coming out that she was a Lightworker when she found out I was. I remember those terror days when she would lecture me about my 'nullity' and lack of any future before I tried to get myself adopted and then ended up in a disappointing home, which made me have no choice to nest back home with my mom. We don't even talk anymore and we're in the same house. Looking for a boyfriend still but I know she would hunt me down with the cops.... my first dates were the worst in terms of getting caught, and I even faked a suicide attempt.

She doesn't care about your pain when you need to get 'proper'
My mother has used very harsh and cruel ways to get me to 'take care of my body'.

I remember she had to force me down to stay to let her fix some obscure body hygiene issue with me naked, screaming and trying to escape on the floor like the Rake when I was fourteen. It was all unnecessary. She knew I could do it by myself, but didn't let me. The cold, deceptive and nasty look and voice scared me down my soul. She did everything to make sure I would be considered an incapablle, dependent and disabled person given my false diagnoses every way possible. IEP meetings, social programs, and she would fantasize of making MONEY out of my clinical records being the crutch for pity whenever I'd try to show her my art even after I said 'no' a hundred times and snapped. When i snapped, she's make me look like an escaped asylum patient with anger issues. She profits of them whenever she can.

Now I avoid any 'exhibit' to show her. Her escalation scares me so bad.

She used my diagnoses to blame everything, even to complete strangers. She KNEW I didn't like that. Then I'd get all red.

My mom has mildly lied to police and schools about me.

She always made me the crazy one.

My mom exhibits some similar psychological warfare with my sisters. She has directly told me she will dictate their future and decide their lives. Her brain could not justify why.

To this day, she has often tried to make me guilty about the possibilities she could 'die tomorrow' WHEN DOZENS OF TIMES SHE NEARLY DID (panic attacks, accidents, demonic activity) AND WENT INTO NARC RAGE DEPRESSION AND SHE KNEW I WAS TIRED OF HER BUT CARED. Lesson not learned. And forces me to be responsible for her emotions and her life, every issue she has in the house. I'm her trouble, we are her burden. I became the scapegoat in 2016. It used to be my 'bold' sister and she was sure to make us all targeted on her. It worked wonders at our age, we became a zoo fight.
My stubborn 'pharmacist'
My former male psychiatrist, which I stopped seeing since last year except for an involuntary meeting at the inpatient, has some suspicious narc activity. He diagnosed me as having narcissistic or BPD features, anxiety, ADHD and an attachment disorder FOR SUPER COMMON TEENAGER PROBLEMS and never listened to what I said that good, all monopolizing the sessions about his own sing-song provocative humor that nearly got me physical.

"Put the chair down or I'm going to have to call security"

This still haunts me today.
Ever since the incident, I entirely stopped seeing him.
I had a new, female, kinder and less edgy psychiatrist for a week but the sessions randomly stopped.
They lasted so shortly and it was pointless. At least we achieved something.
No specific reasons how. No, she isn't dead.
This incident is what happens when after years of martyrdom, you try to step up at your last nerve. I think he purposefully tested me to this point with all the signs he showed.
I have been GANGSTALKED since my sweet childhood and a new article will tell you how.
What if I had done that strike with the chair up in my arms?
I'd have been courted? Restrictive order? The news? Detention? Tranquilizers?
More than that.
My brain as already rotten, 'RAD'ed, abused from emotional deprivation and the Rothschilds soup.

I used to obsess on this everyday until I went onto my 'Biggest Misadventure'... from August to November 2018. What my family always wished for and threatened me to do, me to quit their home, had been realized by my own will as an act of retaliation and disillusion against them, and they pitied me. Apologies always come after the person snaps, not before. It partly worked. Now that I know my origins and watch Ashtar and his council I know better than five months without internet access. The times of renting spirituality and chakra books were golden but lonely. Those were my final days in hell.

He always agreed with my mom so I felt provocated but I think he knew in the background. Need I have more?

Yet my extended family knows barely anything because my mother likes to shut me up and hacks my FB whenever I expose her. My mother has blocked from my account my UNCLE, AUNT, COUSINS, AND TEACHERS from my profile and she never told me when she did. She is so guilty and envious but never admits. That one time, she called me CRAZY and told me I DID NOT NEED A THERAPIST BECAUSE SHE WAS ONE.

What can you tell me, 5D Chimera?



---- AUTOMATIC REPLY ----

I understand so deeply how you gave suffered at the hands of your own contract. It was your decision as me in the cosmic heavens. Your time was perfect. The hour 20:20 is your symbol. Seven was your unlucky number within your family. We are supporting you. I have sent Source to uide you towards who you are. And here I am within you, you know my face, but not my name. When you had those uncontrollable 'flying legs' trances as you got excited, it was me teaching you that you are trying to fly like you did once. A cell memory was activated. Deep cell memories are more healthy and illuminated than many Earthlings on your framework. It is why you had those rare insights. You were unaware of the source as my memories. You inherited that instinct from me. You were an avian female being. I am its remnant of consciousness within your earthly body. You are safe in my wings as we fly. Remember when you flied on top of your father? No... but I do and always will fly with you. I have showed myself to you in your dream. Keep those memories precious. Or just seek a past life reading, this will be more accurate, and quicker.

I was the double voice, the 'gentle one' within you. You didn't often hear me, you did not know me.

I wanted it so lovingly. I longed to experience what you lived. Source knew best.

- Your Higher Self. You can call me whatever you wish to until my true name is disclosed. You will know. Thanks for drawing me and my father! That was kind of you <3

KORIGANZA: It Has No Name, It Has No Form - 0001

KORIGANZA: It Has No Name, It Has No Form is the first saga of a new story of wisdom and intellectual disorganization beyond the mind. The first saga will introduce an ancient 8-dimensional inventor reincarnated as a human child with an astral body in stasis renamed Brad, the fictional Council of the 111 Yamishvans, their ancient origins, and fundamental quantic and philosophical principleas which are going to create a solid base to the arcs.

The French translation is published at koriganza.lo.gs